Thursday, November 2, 2006

Footprints In The Sand Cake

The inescapable imperative reflection



















R Viña came yesterday, and as it was holiday and C had work to do we took the car and we went for a walk. We were eating pies in Con Con, then the ocean rock watching the waves breaking at our feet down the cliff, went to Valparaiso to sightseeing and eating in the Journal chorrillana finish off with a couple of beers. That my friend is going through a crisis period (it will be unemployed within a few months, died recently a mutual friend and just finished a three-year relationship) I confided that he was blamed, for it is facing to give new direction to his life after such a difficult question to ask about what you really want 35 years and can not answer that simply does not know. He told me he feels that much of what he has done in his life, read a postgraduate study and has been the result of subconsciously trying to fulfill the expectations of others, or which he attributes to others, they have about him , or has made a great sacrifice for what we call the "success" that weâ diffuse half is not palpable or chewy, but it regulates the behavior of sick people. States that the fool is not a workaholic or an elitist snobbish or anything, is actually closer to being a hippie indecent, as the song from Maná. The only thing that really keeps you excited and vibrant is the music (a musician in parallel to be a doctor), but can not devote full time to the guitar because it is the most useless and unproductive wea the universe and is even credited with having formally studied as a life giving guitar lessons, in addition to a plethora of people who have equal or superior talent and it is much better. Then C sees two alternatives before him: immerse yourself in the professional life to pursue a vital cultural politics conventional current accounts, mortgages to 20 years, car fees and families with children, etc., or dive headlong into the music once and for all and give up everything else, and do not know what he really wants, but knows it is time to decide what will make the second and final half of his life ...
And the point is that the question is Pelu poh ... What you really want?, because it's true that you can spend a lifetime there depending on what one believes is expected of you in the shadow of imperatives that are often self-creations, perhaps to make sense of the days no more, at worst so I would not ask questions such tremendous and difficult as that ... and it is difficult to answer. So, I find it difficult ... If being happy is doing what one intimate and really want to do What I want?. I, for one, I answered with a phrase of Michelet: "Happy is the man who has found work and a woman to love."
And you, what do you really want?. By that time marches on.